Looking Back… Moving Forward

Mitch Schneider
September 7, 2020

The video associated with this blogpost is an almost perfect example of just how quickly things can change and just how foolish that change can make you feel. I recorded it Wednesday evening, September 2, while an inpatient at Cedars-Sinai Hospital in Los Angeles, under the impression I would be discharged sometime the following day.

That was just before it became apparent, I wasn’t going anywhere. At least, not until yesterday afternoon—Saturday—three days later. Not until two more issues surfaced. Both seemingly related to my original diagnosis of viral pleurisy: an inflammation of the two thin layers of tissue that separate the lungs from the inside the chest wall. And, not until I’d been seen by more ologists than I’ve seen since my stem cell/bone marrow transplant in April 2019!

Looking at the video even I’m surprised at how good I looked. Especially, in comparison to how I felt when Lesley and I got to the hospital late Sunday evening, August 30. My voice was strong. I was smiling. And, at that moment, I was relatively pain-free. It was a random moment captured in time that really failed to represent just how sick I’d become or how rocky the next few days would be.

Illusions and Delusions

My diagnosis of viral pleurisy was followed by a second diagnosis of pericarditis—inflammation of the two thin layers of a sac-like tissue that surrounds the heart, helps to hold it in place, and facilitates its ability to function.

There was a third diagnosis as if two weren’t enough! That was for an abnormally low heart rate—bradycardia.

Bradycardia doesn’t sound so bad… And, in all honesty, it doesn’t have to be. How bad depends on whether or not it is a result of the inflammations and is likely to go away. Or, it’s something more insidious. Unfortunately, we won’t know that for a couple of weeks.

Did I mention I’ve got a flight recorder­ glued to my chest? I just wish I could take it out for a road test!

The good news is the change is all good. I’m home. Vertical. Free to roam about the cabin, take nourishment, and able to complain. What it has done, however, is help refocus a clarity of purpose I’ve been nurturing.

But, more about that later.

 

 



10 Comments
  1. Michael Wildman
    September 7, 2020

    Wooow... I'm glad your home, complaining.

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    • Mitch Schneider
      September 8, 2020

      Is that what I was doing? If it was, that makes two of us!

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  2. suzie gullet
    September 7, 2020

    Love your spirit of strength against fear. Love you mitch

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    • Mitch Schneider
      September 8, 2020

      As soon as I can get healthy enough for long enough I'll need to start working out with you. Do you think I should just try it virtually for now. I feel like such a slug and each hospitalization, illness, or injury just makes it worse. I'm not whining... I'm blessed to be able to complain. But, a little bit of 'healthy' would feel really good about now!

      One other thing... I don't think I have to tell you how I feel about you, David, and the rest of the family! I think you have held a special place in my heart (And, Jerry's ;-{)}) since I first met you!

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  3. Bob white
    September 8, 2020

    Thank you Mitch for your insight and retrospective on what's important, when things change in our life, wether by fate or on purpose. It really enlightened me as to my failures in my behavior towards family and friends over the holiday. You are a blessed person 🙏. Thank you for convincingly getting to see a different prospective then me Mr. Selfish.

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    • Mitch Schneider
      September 8, 2020

      Not sure what to say, Bob. Your comments are humbling and mean more to me than you can know. No one ever said any of this would ever be easy and it's not. At least, not in my experience. However, it is an excellent lesson in community and how important we are—and can be—to everyone around us. And, I'm not sure it has anything at all to do with selfish unless you define selfish as being the only thing on your list. That isn't the case for most of us and as long as there's room for someone else—anyone or anything else—I'm not sure you can qualify! The diagnosis of a terminal, life-threatening illness, can do wonders for your perspective. Not to mention, your attitude. There is a degree of truth in the constant harangue of "we are ll in this together," because—for the most part—we are! Stay well and take care...

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  4. Bob white
    September 8, 2020

    And know people are praying for you and a speedy, complete diag, with whatever parts and labor, are nessessary for a full re-build. Hang in there.

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    • Mitch Schneider
      September 8, 2020

      I have to tell ya, that's pretty much what it feels like. A constant battle of two steps forward and then one back. The good news is that failure—at least, in this case—is not an option. The other good news is with the exception of someone else's stem cells, all the other parts are OE! ;-{)}

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    September 8, 2020

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    • Mitch Schneider
      September 8, 2020

      WordPress has worked well for me. I kind of feel it's almost 'idiot-proof.' For whatever its worth, the best way to start is by starting! ;-{)} Good luck!

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