One of the most unsettling realities we will ever be asked to confront is our mortality. Knowing that your very existence has been challenged and that you may not survive can destroy you if you let it.
Having that insecurity compounded by the Post Traumatic Stress of not knowing when or if your recovery will be compromised doesn’t help. And, while you can’t allow those thoughts the luxury of permanent residence in your frontal cortex, it’s impossible to deny the fact they are always there—lurking just below the surface.
If you are a cancer survivor. A stem cell/bone marrow transplant recipient, as I am, you know how lucky you are just to be here.
Another source of grave insecurity is the current coronavirus/C-19 crisis. A vicious virus with an insatiable appetite.
I’ve learned a lot from my experience with Primary Myelofibrosis and the transplant. A lot from confronting my own mortality and the fear and apprehension that travel that road with me.
Over time, I’ve learned a little bit about insecurity living in a place where the earth moves. Lessons that helped me get through bone marrow cancer and will help me get through the pandemic.
I contracted cancer. It wasn’t going away on its own. I couldn’t change that.
Will it return? I don’t know. No one can say.
I can confront the reality I was presented with head-on. However, that’s all I can do.
The pandemic is here. It won’t go away on its own either. We can’t change that.
When will it end? Will it return? No one knows. No one can say.
All we can do is everything we can to confront it, contain it, and ultimately defeat it. We do that based upon how we choose to act. With how we choose to react.coronavirusCovid-19earthquakeinsecurityprimary myelofibrosisshaky groundstem cell/bone marrow transplantunstable