The Struggle to Commit…

Mitch Schneider
November 3, 2020

Two things before we get started. Both are Public Service Announcement, more or less. The first has to do with today: November 3, 2020. Your responsibility to vote as a participant in our democracy. And, the second, which has to do with your responsibility to yourself and your personal health. The first has to do with the privilege you enjoy with regard to voting. A privilege paid for with the lives of countless individuals who have fought and died for that right

The second, with your responsibility to your health and the health and safety of those around you. A responsibility to ensure that you are vaccinated for Shingles. Each is critical in its own way.

Now, it’s on to this blog post. A post about the struggle to commit.

I hate to admit it, but I am struggling. Struggling with what to do next.

It isn’t that I don’t know. There is plenty to choose from. So, the problem isn’t a choice or even the choice itself.

The problem is uncertainty. Not knowing whether or not my plans will be shattered by another hospitalization or some other medical challenge. It’s a reality I’ve been confronted with four times since August 30. That translates to four hospitalizations for a total of more than 25 days in just over two months. Six hospitalizations, if you count the two in December of last year and January 2020.

That’s a lot of starting and stopping! A fair amount of planning and more than a little disappointment. Each setback accompanied by a longer, more difficult recovery.

A Seductive World of Like To’s…

I’ve created an ambitious list of Like To’s. Things I want to do but hesitate to begin.

I’d like to start a podcast. I’ve actually taken the first steps to make that happen. But podcasts could just as easily translate as commitment. A commitment to conceive, write and produce material someone else is likely to benefit from. It’s not something you can—or, should—take lightly. Not something you start and stop without considering the impact it might have on your audience.

I’d like to build a Misfire newsletter based on the lessons I’ve embedded in the book. But a newsletter requires the same kind of commitment that accompanies a podcast. Even keeping up with this blog is an adventure. Especially, when you’re wondering when you will be headed to the hospital for another adventure.

There are other things I’d like to do, all complicated by the desire to contribute. To remain relevant. And, the realization that I’m still recovering from cancer and the transplant. That, and the desire to transcend that initial reluctance to commit…



1 Comment
  1. Shelly Miller
    November 3, 2020

    Mitch, just keep in writing those "like to's"! You'll get them knocked off, one at a time, as you are able. I get it! I have been there. Health crap sucks but keeping the positive attitude you have will make them come to fruition ! And the shingles shots were killers but better than getting shingles! Hugs my friend.

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